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03 February 2009 @ 08:30 pm

So I haven't written here in a while. My bad.

I don't think I'll really be writing on here much at all, really. I've got my other account,

kirainjapan , and I've been writing in there (not often enough, but whatever). So if you guys haven't friended me on there, do itttt. I check it a LOT more often. I can't even remember which e-mail I have attached to this account, haha.

Anyway. Not much going on. I'm sure if you guys still read this you've already been updated on anything major. Broke up with David, had my two best friends come to visit me over New Year's, had alcohol for the first time. Oh, and I'm addicted to House now, ahah.

So yeah. Just, uh, add me on kirainjapan if you haven't yet. If I feel like posting anything personal (since I've linked my family and such to that journal) I'll post it as a friends-only entry. So yep. That's about it. Not sure why I went and changed my icon on here just to come and say that I wouldn't really be on here anymore, but oh well.

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20 September 2008 @ 02:05 pm

Dammit.

I have the best friends in the world.

Why can't they be HERE? :(

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11 September 2008 @ 10:27 pm

Bleh.

Pretty sure I'm PMSing like a madwoman. I was talking to a friend on IM today who didn't seem to be in the happiest mood, and that kind of made me almost cry. Seriously, wtf? I should grow some balls, jesus.

Aside from that;

Bought a copy of Alice's Adventures in Wonderland (in English) today. I've never actually read it, and I figured I should try and get myself to read more, as the only things I really read are manga and Harry Potter. Also trying to find time to read through a book that Dad sent me--Kahlil Gibran's The Prophet. So far so good. But maybe the lines on love just interest me. Especially this one: "And ever has it been known that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation."

Also. Second day of Japanese class tomorrow, at 8:40 am. It's 10:30 pm now. Guess who's barely studied the vocab for the quiz? :D Totally going to do it in the hour or two that I'm awake before I leave for class in the morning.

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01 September 2008 @ 01:08 am

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Sometimes I feel like such a sucky fiancee.

One person knows the real reason why.

Alex, thanks for being there for me, even if you give me advice that I should never take (assuming I don't want all hell to break loose). :D

And as usual, I just put things in the back of my head where they get to stay until I'm forced with dealing with them. I'm good at this game.

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21 July 2008 @ 05:11 pm

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Urghhhhhhhhhhh.

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10 January 2008 @ 12:25 pm

Hmm.

I think I want to try and be a pescetarian.
Meaning, a vegetarian who still eats fish/eggs/milk.

It shouldn't be too hard, seeing as how I don't eat much meat anyway, but I'm just worried that I'll forget. ;P

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08 January 2008 @ 01:49 am

:D

This makes me really happy.

God, do I miss him.

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04 January 2008 @ 10:06 am

Alex, I miss yooooou.

So...The major good and bad news of the day (well, of yesterday, really):

Bad news: I have a cold. David was here for TWO WEEKS with one, and leave it to me to think during the last few days, "Awesome, I'm not sick yet!" and then get stuck with it the day he leaves. Guhhhh. It sucks. My nose is stuffy/runny, my throat is sore, and I just feel like lying down and doing absolutely nothing. Buhh. Oh, and more bad news, I miss Alex. I hope she's okay, I'm getting a little worried since I haven't heard from her in a few days...

Good news: I'm going to South Carolina! Mom and I are driving (yes, DRIVING--13 freaking hours!) down on the 17th (a Thursday), then spending the night at a Quality Inn, then going to David's graduation from Basic Training on the 18th. Then we'll be spending another night at the Quality Inn, and we'll be driving back home on the 19th. So, yay! I felt really bad earlier, because I didn't think I'd be able to go... But David said he'd pay for it all, and I figured it would be slightly cheaper for us to drive down there. Anyway, I haven't been outside of NY and its surrounding states since God-knows-when (probably not since I was like, 7 or 8?), so it'll be nice to drive through (and maybe take a few quick stops at) a bunch of places I've never really been to. I'll be sure to take LOTS of photos with my new camera, so remind me to post them afterwards!

Anyway. Umm. I guess that's it for now. I miss David already. Buuu. Well, at least once he finishes Basic he'll be able to use his phone... I hope.

Oh, note to self, remember to go pick up my ring sometime around the 12th of this month.

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02 January 2008 @ 10:51 am

Eep.

Okay, so I haven't been on here in like... 2 weeks. Sorry! I've been really busy lately, what with school ending and David coming home till... tomorrow (don't remind meeee). Everything's been going fairly well, though. For me, at least.

So, good news. Let's see...

- David got his debit card.
- David bought a cell phone.
- I bought a $594 Canon Rebel XT (fancy schmancy camera).
- I'm trying to get back on track with the "eat better" thing,
because I realized that eating candy for lunch is NOT acceptable anymore.
- I got basically everything I asked for for X-mas... Clothes, Gaia cash card, etc.
- David and I finally got to spend New Year's Eve together!

Basically, the only bad news I can think of right now are two things: Alex is going through a really tough time and I'm doing my best to help her through it, and David will be leaving tomorrow morning... And I don't know when he'll be back again for a break (which really worries me, because by the end of August I'll be leaving the country for 10 months--which I'm also wary of doing because I don't want to leave Alex, either).

But. Aside from that, everything else is going alright. I'm kind of broke at the moment because I bought that camera, but I figured I'd need it sooner or later, and I still have 8 months to put money back in my Japan-money bank account.

Oh, and I made French toast for breakfast. :D

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17 December 2007 @ 09:41 pm

Good news?

Okay, so it looks like things are going to work out better than I expected. If all goes well, Dad is going to pick David up from the airport in Albany on Wednesday and then get him on a bus down to New Paltz so he can see me and we can spend our 4-year anniversary together. Hopefully, he'll be spending the night that night, then helping me study and pack in the morning. I'll have my last two finals, and then mom will pick us up to bring us home for good. <3

Er, I haven't had a chance to tell David about the change of plans, though... But, I'm sure he won't care. As long as he sees me on our anniversary he'll be happy.

For some reason, that reminds me... I bought a small "I <3 You" photo frame from the bookstore, but I still need to find a small enough photo of me (or print one) to go in it so I can give it to him.

Dad also e-mailed me to let me know that one of the two packages I'm expecting arrived today. Yay! I just hope that the engraving is right... I guess I'll have to wait and see on Thursday night or Friday.

Anyway, I should get off the computer. I have a final to study for that's in 10 3/4 hours.

Won't be online much from Dec. 19th - Jan. 3rd.

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10 December 2007 @ 08:37 am

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It's my birthdayyyy. :D

So, I really wanted to go to that Gaia thing in the city... but that didn't work out. BUT! My friend Christina got to go, and since they were giving out hats, she actually was able to get me one! Yayyy! So I'm pretty content. Right now I'm watching the Today Show; that's where the group of Gaia people is, trying to get on TV (they gave one of the news people a hat, haha).

Amusingly, Natalie (my dad's cousin) got me a webcam + headset for my birthday... But I already had one! But, I figure that I can give my old one to mom and keep the new one (the old one doesn't have sound). :]

Not sure what else I'm getting today, haha. I have to wait till dinner to get presents from mom and dad. But I don't mind. I'm going to call Alex and Mary in a little while to see if they can come over.... Not sure if the weather will cooperate with that, though. The High School here is closed because of it, so I don't know how safe it is for them to drive here.

Anyway, I'm off to watch more TV and hopefully see my friend on there~

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04 December 2007 @ 09:58 pm

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OH. MY. GOD. YAY.

I would go into detail about one of the major reasons for that "omgyay", but it wouldn't make sense to most of you so I'm just going to say this: I may get to spend part of my birthday with the creators of what I think is the best website EVAR. Keep in mind it has over 1 million members and there are always anywhere between 30,000-120,000 members online at any given time.

So yeah. That's awesome. Dad said he would try to work something out. I hope it works. Oh, and if it does, there's a chance I may be on the Today Show. Hah! With a bunch of other random people, though.

Anyway. More good news, I talked to Dad and he said I got mail from David. He said it's thick and it needed two stamps. Wonder why? Maybe he sent a bunch of letters at once. That or he had to send me info on his coming home, and/or graduation from BCT. I dunno. Either way, hopefully it's good or important news that will equal more YAY.

I'm almost done with this essay, so that's lowering my stress levels a lot. I still have some homework to do, a test on Thursday to study for (same subject as the essay is due for), and some Photo stuff due Thursday... But I think I'll be okay. I just can't wait for the semester to be OVER!

Anyway. I've been feeling kind of sick all day, so I think I'm going to try and finish up my essay so that I can shower and go to sleeeeep. Bye for now!

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29 November 2007 @ 11:48 pm

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Been writing to David every day, in that notebook and in letters. Still no clue if he's getting the letters or not. I'm assuming so. I hope so...

I took a nap today. From 7-9 pm. Who the hell naps from 7-9 pm? Normal people nap in like... the middle of the day. When naps should be. Or right before dinnertime, like at 4. But 7-9? I'm such a weirdo.

But anyway. Before my nap, I had a headache, which I think was actually a migraine... So thankfully that cleared up a bit after I got some sleep. Right now it's almost midnight, so I'll probably be going back to bed soon. I got up mainly just to go on my computer and get a really late dinner (veggie panini).

Speaking of getting dinner... I also bought a bag of salted pumpkin seeds while I was at the food place, and HOLY GOD THEY ARE SALTY. Like, unhumanly salty. Like, I can't even taste the pumpkin-seed-y-ness of them. All I can taste is SALT. They taste like crunchy, round pieces of salt. Oh. My. God.

Anyway. So this weekend... Work. Cleaning. Raking. Shopping. Alex, I don't know if you got my message. But I was wondering if maybe you'd like to go shopping on Sunday with me (and maybe Mom)? In Kingston? Let me know. Just call me whenever. Leave a message if I don't pick up.

Hrmm. I guess I should get to bed. I've got homework and laundry to do in the morning. Bahh. And then sukiyaki night with Rinako and the rest of Japanese club! Too bad I'll have to leave early...

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12 November 2007 @ 10:49 pm

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So a friend of mine mentioned to me how I don't post very often, so I figured I'd put a little update up before I go off to bed.

Most everything is going okay for me right now. I miss David a lot, but I get a letter or two from him in the mail every week, so that's always something to look forward to. I can't wait to see him next month (assuming he can find a way up here for his break). Mom even said that if he's here around X-mas, he can come with us to grandma and grandpa's. I'm hoping that if that happens, he and grandpa can stick to talking about the army and motorcycles... seeing as how those are the only two experiences/interests I think they have in common. And David's pretty much a polar opposite of my grandparents... Honestly, he's the opposite of most of the people in my family, haha. But anyway, I still hope that all works out.

Work has been good. I love my job just as much as always. I'm so lucky to work there, really... Great boss, not too hard, not too many hours but enough to give me some spending money... I just love it. Heck, I even go there and help out when I'm not even working! On Saturday night, I went in to visit with Amanda and Amber, and I ended up helping Amber with projection... I threaded both films for her, haha. Oh, and from now on I'll be working the full shift on matinees because PJ is letting me be in charge of projection. Score! :D That, and Mary is leaving next month (sad face), which means I'll also be taking over her Sunday night shift.

Anyway. So Dannie's going to be home this coming weekend! I'm so excited. She said we're going to hang out when I get off from work on Friday night. Guaranteed we'll end up going to Wal-mart at some point, ahah. It's tradition, we have toooo!

Aaaaanyway. I guess that's all for now. It's 11 pm and I should really get to bed. Stupid Art of the Western World. I'll go write to David and then head off to sleep... G'night. :B <3

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19 October 2007 @ 12:00 pm

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I feel kind of sick.
I don't want to go to Japanese.
I miss David. A lot.

Good news:
On Wednesday, Matsubara sensei offered everyone in our class candy. It was a choice between regular M&Ms, Kit Kat, and peanut butter M&Ms (aka one of the best candies EVER). I controlled myself and declined. Go me.

Been eating well all week, aside from on Sunday. Let's hope for the best this weekend, shall we?

I'd skip Japanese but I already skipped once to cram for a geology lab test.
Eep... I hope I don't end up doing that this Wednesday, too...

Coffee and sugar-free jell-o so far. Haha, not exactly healthy. But at least low-cal. I think I'll have some soup after class. Mmm salt.

I have work from 6:15 till 11-something tonight. I'm afraid that it's going to be boring/sucky. But at least things will be back to normal. No kids' show, no dressing up (unless I wanted to, but I don't feel like it). Hope everything goes okay.

I need to remember to bring home my laptop, that orange towel, my camera, my bike and that notebook this weekend. All have important purposes and I really would prefer not to forget any of them.

Anyway. Class in 25. I should get going. I have to pee first, haha.

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17 October 2007 @ 11:18 pm

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I know I'm posting for the second time today but whatever.

I miss him. Already I do. We normally wouldn't see each other till the weekend anyway. But knowing that I won't see him for almost 3 months, that's what's making me miss him so soon. I saw him three days ago. I won't see him for another 2 1/2 months. I'm sad. I know he'll be okay. He's not getting into anything dangerous, it's just basic training. But part of me wishes he hadn't left at all. I know it will be good for him, though. A good experience, and it'll give him plenty of opportunities and hopefully benefits. I just wish that it didn't mean he'd be away for so long. I wish he could do something just as productive, but something where he'd stay in the area and I'd be able to see him. He said he's signed up to do 4 years in the army. I'll see him for a few weeks, every 3 (or more) months. And if I go to Japan next year... that will be 10 months without him. I thought he would suffer more from that but now I'm not so sure. It's hard for me already, and it's only been a few days.

But still, I hope this separation brings us closer. I'm sure it will. "Absense makes the heart grow fonder." I think that will prove true. I know he misses me. I know he wishes that we could be falling asleep together tonight, if he's thinking about me. I wish that, too. I wish I could open my door to find him standing there. I wish I could get one of his awesome hugs right now. I wouldn't even mind if it was one of those bear hugs where he picks me up and it kind of hurts. I wouldn't care. I'd just be happy to be in his arms.

Wow, I'm such a sap. Haha. But I just love him so much. I'm going to miss his hair, that's for sure. I can barely even remember what it was like when we first met, when he had it shorter but not nearly as short as it's going to be. I like it longer. But hey, at least now when it grows out it will be natural again. No more left over orange tint from when he lightened it. That'll be nice. I like his natural brown. It's cute.

Okay, so enough of me ranting about his hair. Hmm. I have so much to do over the next week. I can't wait till it's all done with. I'm so close to just blowing off studying tonight and just waking up earlier in the morning so I can study right before class. Probably not good. Either way, no matter what I do I'm going to run the risk of accidentally sleeping in because I need to stay up longer than I normally would and I won't get enough sleep no matter which order I sleep and study in. Urgh. Stupid midterms.

Hmm. So back to David. I'm writing him a letter in this notebook every day. I bought it specifically for that purpose. Today I spilled coffee on the edge/corner of it twice, I'm such a klutz. I also got my laptop with it, but thankfully it didn't touch anything vital (holy god, imagine if it had gotten in a USB port! eep!). I'm sad that I got coffee on the notebook, though. I was trying to keep it all nice-looking and then I had to go and stain the covers and the bottom edges of the pages. Urgh. Oh well. David won't mind.

Mmm, I just wish I could see him right now. Even if it was only for a minute. I'd just want to give him a hug and a kiss and tell him good luck and that I love him. At least I can think it, though. And that hickey is still on my shoulder. I kind of wish he had made it darker, haha, because it doesn't look like it will last much longer. Oh well. At least I still have Bear, and tons of other stuff he's given me, to remind me of him. <3

Alright, I guess I should go study. Ugh. Stupid stupid midterm. I hate this class, it's so boring. And 8:30 in the morning? Ughhhh. I'm so not a morning person.

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17 October 2007 @ 04:52 pm

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Oww, my left knee hurts.
Which means that David's knee may be hurting, or it may just be me.
I hope it's not his knee hurting. Hope he's okay.

I dunno, it's happened quite a few times where I've had one of my wrists have this certain pain in it and I'd ask him if one of his wrists hurt and if he said it did, I'd ask which one...and 3/4 of the time it ended up being the same one that hurt on me. I know most people wouldn't believe that but whatever. I'm just hoping this knee issue is just with me.

Ughhh I don't want to write this stupid review for art seminar. And I don't want to spend 3 hours in class tonight. Ugh. And then I have to go to Japanese Club and wait till 10 till I can go buy dinner. Then I get to stay up late because I need to cram for this stupid freaking Art of the Western World midterm. Ughh I hate that class.

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15 October 2007 @ 07:53 pm

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David's so sweet.
This weekend he kept saying how he can't wait to marry me. And I guess that may sound weird to some people, or they may think, "whatever, you're too young, you don't know what you're doing/what you want yet," but I know how much he loves me and I know that even though it's not going to happen for a while, I do want to marry him.

I mean, when I think about it, I get so excited for when we'll be able to have a place of our own.. When we can spend our nights together, when I can cook him breakfast every morning (which I like doing, haha), when I can decorate the house/apt. and he can roll his eyes and call me silly when I get too excited about it... I really am looking forward to all of that.

I want to be with him, I want to marry him, I want to live with him, I want to be happy with him. And you know, when you really think about it, this may not be all that far away. I'm already in my second year of college, he's starting the army... By the time I graduate, or the year after, he will have finished his 4 years in the army and he'll be able to come home. And we can start everything together. He wants us to get married in Japan. I think that would be a neat idea, except that hardly anyone we know would be able to come, haha. And I told him that I think I'd want to live here in NY or maybe in Massachusetts, or maybe even in Japan if I decide that I want to stay there. I know that this is all just daydreams, but it could be real someday. And I'm just really hoping that it will all be able to happen.

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09 October 2007 @ 09:48 pm

Surveys.

( 120 questions. Holy frick. )

( Another one )

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02 October 2007 @ 02:07 pm

STUDY ABROAD OPTIONS.

I'm having trouble deciding which I want to do. Here are my choices. Opinions, anyone?

Basically, "SUNY school" refers to the school that the study-in-Japan program goes through. Meaning, the school I'll be paying tuition to and getting credit from.
"Japanese school" is just the name of whatever school in Japan that the program is through.
"Term(s) I could go" refers to whether I would be going for the fall or spring semester, or for a whole academic year.
"Art program?" is whether or not that school/program offers art courses (because otherwise I wouldn't be taking courses related to my major, and therefore I would probably end up having to spend an extra semester or year in school).

SUNY school: New Paltz
Japanese school: Kanazawa University
Term(s) I could go: Academic year (early Oct. - early Aug.)
Art program?: None
Housing: Single dorm rooms
Other info: Has "environmental earth sciences" course(s) that may help with my hopeful-minor in Geology.

SUNY school: New Paltz
Japanese school: Nagasaki University of Foreign Studies
Term(s) I could go: Fall (late Sept. - mid Feb.) or Spring (early April - late July)
Art program?: None, except "seminars in Traditional Japanese Arts"
Housing: Most likely home stay (w/host family), or single dorm room
Other info: --

SUNY school: Albany
Japanese school: Kansai Gaidai University
Term(s) I could go: Fall (late Aug. - mid Dec.) or Spring (late Jan. - late May) or Academic Year
Art program?: I think so... yes.
Housing: Host family or dorm
Other info: --

SUNY school: Oswego
Japanese school: University of Tsukuba
Term(s) I could go: Academic Year (late Aug. - late June)
Art program?: Yes
Housing: Dorm
Other info: Only 40 miles away from Tokyo!

SUNY school: Oswego
Japanese school: Akita International University
Term(s) I could go: Fall (late Aug. - late Dec.) or Spring (mid April - late July)
Art program?: No, only if I were doing art education.
Housing: Dorm
Other info: 400 miles away from Tokyo...

SUNY school: Oneonta
Japanese school: Seinan Gakuin University
Term(s) I could go: Fall, Spring or Academic Year
Art program?: Yes, and there's a Photography club
Housing: Student apartments
Other info: In Fukuoka; not very close to Tokyo...

I think my top two choices at this point are between Seinan Gakuin University and the University of Tsukuba. Tsukuba is really appealing because it has an art program and it's close to Tokyo... but it's for a full year, and I don't know if I could handle that. Seinan Gakuin seems to have a good art program (even a Photo club!) and I'd even be able to go for one semester instead of the full year... but it isn't too close to Tokyo, and I'd really prefer to be able to go there. Plus I'd have to live in an apartment, and even though the website says they're "reasonably priced" I don't know if we could afford it. Ugh. I guess I'll call dad and see what he thinks.

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